What a Difference a Year Makes

It was one year ago today that I thought my life was falling apart.  I remember thinking my life had to be some crazy dream.  At the time, I never thought that my life could go back to "normal."  I couldn't imagine myself on the other side of the storm.  I thought it would never end.  But, all things do end and my pain finally did.

I don't know when it happened exactly, but it did nonetheless.  I am shocked by how strong I was.  I know God was with me.  There was no way I could've gotten through it on my own.  There were two songs that got me through:

1) Sara Evans-Stronger
Can't get the links to work!  ugh!

2) Matthew West-Strong Enough
Double ugh!

Philippians 4:13- "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength," became my bible verse.  I said it OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER.  It became my mantra.

I never imagined I'd be saying I was thankful for what happened to me, but I do and I am.  I am so thankful for that horrible day, March 12, 2012.  It was the first day of me living my new life.  It was the first day I knew the truth for 14 years.  I learned what I don't want or will not put up with in future relationships.

I hate that I'm divorced.  I know God doesn't like it, but I also know that God doesn't want you to be in a relationship of any sort that is harmful.  That's what my marriage was.  It was harmful.  It wasn't good for me to stay.

I am so happy right now where I am in life.  I love the relationship I'm in and I love that I can love and trust again.  That's the power of Christ.  And for that I'll always be thankful!